BIGBANG’s T.O.P Opens Up About His Suicide Attempt And Battle With Mental Health

YG Leisure’s group BIGBANG has been making waves in Ok-Pop since their debut in 2006. They’ve been a relentless affect to idols and followers worldwide with their music and perspective in the direction of life all through the years.

But, with their fame skyrocketing and being in an industry that expects perfection, the members have opened up about the hardships of being an idol. 

One one that has been vocal about these hardships lately is member T.O.P. The idol disappeared from the public eye 5 years in the past. After the announcement that BIGBANG would be making their comeback this yr, the idol has been more public about his life in Ok-Pop, together with the darkish sides.

T.O.P lately sat down in an interview with Status On-line, and the idol mentioned his previous, present, and future in the Ok-Pop industry together with some of the harsh realities of being an idol.

Throughout the interview, T.O.P was extraordinarily trustworthy with followers about every little thing in his life, together with his psychological well being. He defined that since he was younger, he has suffered from despair, however artwork has given him a type of escapism.

Since I was younger I’ve suffered from despair, however by taking a look at stunning issues, particularly artwork, I really feel relaxed, I really feel relieved. I was born to be unhappy. I’ve felt further delicate in contrast to different children since I was younger. I knew it and felt it, and spent more time and more effort to recover from it by spending time with artwork.

— T.O.P

He additionally spoke about a really darkish interval of his life that nearly modified his life ceaselessly. Again in 2017, T.O.P was formally charged with the unlawful use of marijuana in a rustic that’s nonetheless very strict about medicine and their use.

At the time, it was one of the largest news tales in Korea, and T.O.P described it as “The worst moment” of his life. But, the aftermath of that scandal impacted T.O.P the most, and he revealed the extent to which it affected his psychological well being and even led to his makes an attempt at dying with suicide.

That is the first time I’ve spoken this publicly, however I did strive to die with suicide about 5 years in the past. I spotted later how a lot damage and painful recollections I gave to the individuals round me, my family, and followers on the market.

— T.O.P

It was an occasion that impacted T.O.P for a lot of years and additionally made him assume about giving up music. These years away from the limelight and his love for music helped him discover inspiration once more. He discovered his want to give again to those that have supported him.

Really, I was going to severely cease making music and cease being a musician. However throughout the dangerous occasions, the tough occasions, my motivation to keep going was the music.

— T.O.P

With his time away, he used it to rekindle his love for the industry and discovered that it utterly modified who he was as an individual. For him, he believed {that a} weight had been lifted.

I wrote more than 100 songs over the previous 5 years. It’s been my motivation, like wanting to replenish a bookshelf with my work. It’s been my ardour. I spotted how treasured it’s to pay again what I’ve acquired. I really feel that I’m reborn.

— T.O.P

T.O.P additionally mentioned how in Korea, the suicide charges in the nation have been the highest in the OECD (Organisation for Financial Co-operation and Improvement). Nonetheless, regardless of this, it’s nonetheless a taboo subject inside the conventional society.

Nonetheless, with idols like T.O.P and others talking up about the seriousness of psychological well being, it appears to be a subject that’s beginning to be addressed more, particularly in the world of Ok-Pop.